cobwebs.

every single time i hear the word, "cobwebs", i think of a movie called "drop dead fred". if you haven't seen it, you should. it's pretty funny. i watched it as a kid. spencer and i loved it. there was a pretty inappropriate part regarding cobwebs...and it's always stuck with me. probably because it was inappropriate. isn't that how it happens with kids?

not to get off subject (oh heck, who am i kidding...i LIVE off subject)...but there was this one time my mom recorded "alice in wonderland" for us. yes. you all know the movie/story/book. well, we had satellite. and illegal one if i remember correctly. some type of unscrambler or something.

this of course meant that we got pretty much EVERY channel. the good, the bad and the ugly. well, apparently, when mom had set the recorder, she didn't realize that the channel she was recording from wasn't disney.

nope. it was the spice channel. if you're familiar with this...shame on you. :) just kidding.

so, fast forward to when she replays it for us.

i remember it like it was yesterday. me and spencer. we were young. i'd say 9 and 6 maybe. sitting on the big oriental rug in the living room. right smack dab in front of the tv.

all of a sudden, alice wasn't wearing any clothes. and the chesire cat was doing weird things. to alice.

you get the picture.

i remember thinking, "what.in.the.world.?!". and of course, spencer...being spencer. said something like, "uh..mom. what is this about!?".

my mother doesn't run. she can't. i take after her.

but that day...my mom ran like the house was on fire. she ran screaming in from the kitchen. waving her arms like a crazy person. screaming for us to "look away! look away!".

of course this only made us want to watch more. this peaked our interest.

i'll never forget it. it's pretty funny now...looking back on it.

anyway...cobwebs. my head is full of them. so here is what is on my mind. sorry for this rather boring post...but ten years from now, i'll look back and wonder what we were doing.

i love where we live. yes, it's far out. but it's smack dab in the country. from our front porch, you can see mountains. but not a single other house. it's wonderful. we finally have back porch furniture and i sit out there every day and read. it's heaven on earth. pratt could spend his entire day outside.

i worry about pratt now more than ever. i guess because he's moving around so well. i found him with a piece of bark in his mouth yesterday. this DID NOT help my neuroses. i've decided to vaccum every single day. i mean, what other choice do i have? and the rainbow forces me to WANT to do it every day because of the crap i get out of my one and only rug in this house. i keep telling myself that i love ace and yoda, but all the hair makes it hard to remember sometimes. i'm just hoping that pratt will grow up with a love for animals. and this will make it all worthwhile someday.

i've somewhat cured my own adhd. i didn't really ever have it. but i sort of did. i would walk away from something in the middle of it. without finishing. i've gotten better about this. i've had to. because i now understand that moms don't have more time. it's just that we are able to do more in that time. i just got this. 8 months later...i'm on it. i'm a slow learner.

pratt is apparently following the 42 day challenge as well. he is super skinny. and won't gain weight. i weigh him daily. he's growing like a weed, and i'd like to believe that is where the food is going. it's making him taller. but not wider.

for the first time since i had him, i have more than 2 pair of pants that fit me! yay hannah! thanks to my sister and mom for my mothers day gift...and clint for allowing me to spend whatever i need on new clothes. i'm up to five (and this is a HUGE number for me) pairs of pants that fit comfortably....and that i love to wear. i have others...but these are my favorites. i hate spending money on myself. but i've realized that having clothes that fit me...well, it's priceless. it really is. but if any of you are still wanting to turn me into clinton and stacy...bring it on. i'll happily wear mom jeans just to get them to my house!

i've been eating lots of fruit lately. with poppy seed dressing. reminds me of my childhood. i'm going to make chicken salad today. and maybe some muffins or something. i'm getting excited about summer. and what it means to us.

we joined a church. and have started attending a sunday school class. it's all really new. and makes me miss maumelle even more. but i know it will get better. growing up is hard to do.

oh, pratt has now eaten (and liked) cucumbers and strawberries. he'll only eat a few bites of each...but it's better than nothing. it's like you have to get him at exactly the right time. or he's totally not interested. i don't understand it. all in time, i guess.

off to get ready. i think we will head to the park today. it's so pretty outside. a week of pretty. we've needed it.

love to you all.