a rough patch.

if i'm being honest, then i'd say this past week has been a hard one.

i don't know why. wait, yes i do. because of mother nature. that's all i'll say. in case there are any male readers. but i wasn't prepared. i mean, i knew. but when i found out i was pregnant in may, all i could think about was how i wouldn't have to buy any more ditties for quite some time.

heck, i even stopped clipping the coupons for them.

so it wasn't good. and then came the news that several of my friends are expecting babies right around the same time as i was. and suddenly i remembered what i felt like when EVERYONE was getting engaged and i had been dating a certain someone for YEARS I TELL YOU, YEARS. and he had yet to pop the question. and i was dying. anyway, it hurt.

it hurt because i was genuinely happy for these people. but i also yearned to be pregnant. and so i hung out alone for a while. didn't want to act like i was okay. because i wasn't. i felt sort of like simon cowell. when he talked to oprah. and he said that he hated acting like he was okay. that he was happy. but that given a few days, he would come out better. on the other side.

and so i'm feeling like i'm coming out. on the other side. maybe even a little better.

thank you to those of you who randomly emailed me. telling me you were praying for me. it's amazing what God will put on our hearts if we are listening. so thank you. thank you for praying for me. even when you didn't know what to pray specifically. i love you girls so much.

pratt is good. he's growing. and talking non stop. it's so great. he's such a joy to be around. except when he needs a nap. and then it's just horrible.

he's funny and cute. and sweet. and he loves other kids. if he had it his way, he would have coleman and leyton here all the time. every day.

he loves to hide. behind curtains. under his bed. in the laundry room. everywhere.

he answers any question asked of him on cartoons. it's so funny. i think he just repeats whatever was said last. so funny. we're in the process of moving most of his toys upstairs. we are making clint's office a playroom. we bought some great elfa shelving at the container store last week. clint put it up and it looks great. there are 12 baskets. and they will hold most of his stuff. i'm looking for a little table with some chairs too. we went antique shopping today but didn't find anything we really had to have.

i have so much to be thankful for. my life is better than i could have ever imagined. i will continue to accept things that break my heart. because i know that it just makes me more able to stand in someone else's shoes. and isn't that what life is really about? understanding and loving others.

absolutely. i think so.

have wonderful tuesdays.