a few days ago your daddy said something that i don't want to forget. and i'm writing it on here because 1. i will forget and 2. i think you should hear it. (read it. whatever).
we were both looking at you smiling. i looked up and caught him looking at you. with that smile on his face. the same smile he had the day we got married. when he saw me for the first time. me and my up-do. it was a cool up-do, though. well, if that's possible.
anyway. he said, "sometimes i think he looks just like mamaw. like maybe she picked him for us, or something."
i couldn't have said it better myself.
i lost a baby in june before i got pregnant with you in august. i convinced myself that she was in heaven, holding that baby. rocking him. loving him. keeping him with her.
and so it's not a far stretch to imagine that she picked you out just for us. only a few months later.
i wish i had known her better. i wish she were still here, with us. to hold you. and love you. and fix you strawberries covered in sugar. i know your daddy misses her.
just thought you should know when dad says things like this. because i really think it shows his heart. his giant, great big heart.
xoxo, mommy.
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